You desire to feel fully seen and honoured and you need to feel safe to be vulnerable and want to feel free to be in your fullest self-expression.
Most of your time and energy has gone into working on your purpose and healing yourself and this has left little room and space for the intimacy that you really want!
You have been trying to create a level of freedom in your life where you have time for lots of intimacy, play, travel and adventure whilst also making a difference.
Whilst on this mission though you may have become depleted and tired at times, like you are on some kind of treadmill trying to get to this place that you never quite get to, because you are always working on the next thing you need to do to get there!
You will hear yourself say ‘I don’t have time for intimacy right now’ or ‘When I have reached XYZ level of success then I’ll make myself more available’ or ‘I don’t have any energy left' or 'I've got nothing left to give'.
Perhaps when you have opened yourself up, but you have found yourself becoming closed off and shut down or pushing away what you want. If you are single you may have found that you just can’t seem to find men who are available to fully show up for you or you attract ones that you don’t feel safe to go deep in intimacy with.
The reality is that you are what is called an ‘Intimacy Avoidant’, you unconsciously avoid having the intimacy you really want by keeping yourself busy and unavailable, because a part of you doesn’t feel safe to actually have it and a part of you also doesn’t believe that you can have both purpose and intimacy.